Brothers = Emotional Crap part 2

2 comments Posted by Rebecca Greer at 5:58 PM

I just dropped Billy off at his bridge (aka his place of residence). Today went well. I picked him up around 2, came back to my place, he ate more food than I have ever seen him eat, he went down to the crawl space and found a bunch of his clothes, he took a shower and we talked for a while. In a way I think he enjoys being out on the streets... Its not as bad as I thought. He is able to eat 3 meals a day and he still has clothes on his back so as long as he does not cross the wrong people he is okay. He is still on drugs and still drinks so it is very obvious that he is not wanting to change his lifestyle. We never filled out applications like he said he needed help with... Just another way to get me to pick him up and for him to eat a good home cooked meal I guess. He did not ask for anything until I dropped him off... He asked if I had a couple dollars and with out thinking, I told him NO. He mumbled that he needed cigarettes and I looked at him and told him to find a job.


I guess the one thing that I don't get is how he is okay with living under a bridge... I don't see how he is okay with smooching off of anyone and everyone he comes into contact with. Its not the same brother I grew up with and that makes me so sad. I know times weren't too easy, but they were not miserable when we were growing up either. I think we had an exceptionally good childhood compared to some. I can just pray that he wants to change. I have decided today that I will no longer worry about him. He knows what he is doing (so he says) and he is not looking to change his life, so I just need to get on with mine. I will always be there for him (I don't care what anyone says) because he is my little brother, but I am not going to stress myself out anymore. If he does not like something I say or do to try and help him that is too bad. I love him and I tell him that every time I talk to him and hopefully he believes me.

Just thought I would get that out in the open! I had a wonderful day with my brother and I am calm and in a great mood so I know that I am moving on! I am very excited about this. Well, gotta go and try to figure out something to make for dinner... Wish me luck! ha ha

 

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brothers = emotional crap

0 comments Posted by Rebecca Greer at 11:13 AM


I have decided to start a journal online... if anyone reads this, advise is always welcome! If no one reads this, oh well, at least my thoughts and troubles are out there! 


I am going to meet with my brother today. I am afraid of what I will see. He has been out on the streets for a good 3 weeks now. He does not have any of his belongings and I have no clue how or where he eats. He says he is looking for a job, so hopefully he will find something and hopefully he is finally sick of living his life the way he has been living it.  He is in so much trouble with the law it breaks my heart to think of what may happen to him.  I am praying that today goes okay. I am in a positive mood today, so I am doing my best not to let any situation stress me out. I always feel there is so much I should be doing for him. Everyone I talk to says that I have already done too much for him, but being his older sister, I am supposed to protect him. Billy and I have always been so close and he always confided in me when we were growing up. But, I will stay strong and keep up the tough love. The reason for meeting with him today is to help him fill out applications and so he can go thru some of his belongings stored in my crawl space. 

I think that is all I am going to write about today. I still have quiet a bit to do before meeting up with Billy. 


 

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